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Stronger than promises, stronger than love This blog isn't going to be long. It's something thats has been on my mind basically all summer. Even at my wedding, I looked into the crowd and realized that someone important was missing. I have lost my best friend again. This isn’t uncommon as in the past I … Continue reading Depression 101: Missing
"The city that never sleeps has been put to bed..." I am NYC all the way. I was born there, raised there, it's what I know best. I've explored every borough, shopped every district, been to every arena or stadium. I've spent nights in its nicest hotels and in its dirtiest apartments. I lived in … Continue reading Corona City
"I'm good man. I'm good..." Around this time last year, depression became a real thing for me. Not that I was suffering from it, but I had watched what it had done to my best friend. Someone who had always laughed and joked around. Someone who was so smart and witty, now reduced to what … Continue reading Depression 101 Pt.1
Part 6: Jaquan The video you are about to watch is sad. It does have its happy moments, but overall, it is about a man, my best friend, who has been through so much, he tried to end his own life not once, but twice. Here is the answer to the question of what made … Continue reading JAQUANS JOURNEY: WHAT MADE MY BEST FRIEND WANT TO KILL HIMSELF? 6/6
Part 5: Communication or Lack Thereof Men don't talk about their problems. It's just not something we're programmed to do. At least I don't. If I have an issue or a problem, I deal with it alone until I find a solution. Its not always the smartest thing, but I feel as a man, it's … Continue reading JAQUANS JOURNEY: WHAT MADE MY BEST FRIEND WANT TO KILL HIMSELF? 5/6
Part 4: Different Paths My mother, my sister, and I are the kind of people you can call at 3am as if it were 3pm. We always answer the phone, emergency or not. Sometimes people can't sleep and just want someone to talk to. Sometimes people are lost in the middle of the night and … Continue reading Jaquans Journey: What Made My Best Friend Want to Kill Himself? 4/6
Part 3: The Departure Music can help you in a lot of situations. Break up with a girl and your heart hurts, Adele's "Someone Like You". Want to lose weight but can't find motivation? Kanye West's "Stronger". Met the right guy and it's time to get down? "Bed" by J.Holiday. Feeling depressed and all alone, … Continue reading JAQUANS JOURNEY: WHAT MADE MY BEST FRIEND WANT TO KILL HIMSELF? 3/6
Part 2: The Change I am not a psychiatrist. I have never studied the human brain, nor have I ever done research on it. I don’t know the different kinds or levels of “Mental Health”. In the past, to me, you play with your shit in the toilet, you’re crazy. That’s it. I would hear … Continue reading JAQUANS JOURNEY: WHAT MADE MY BEST FRIEND WANT TO KILL HIMSELF? 2/6
Part 1: Introduction to Friendship. Depression is real. You can know a person your whole life, see them everyday, and never know what they're really thinking, how they're really feeling, what they're really going through. Growing up, I used to think I knew what being depressed was or meant. A girlfriend breaking up with me, … Continue reading Jaquans Journey: What Made My Best Friend Want To Kill Himself? 1/6
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